1:21 PM
Yes.. I don't want the vacation to end so soon :(
I can't even remember, when was the last time I've enjoyed the autumn vacation so much.
So thanks for making it so good, my precious. <3
Iloveyou.
12:00 PM
Just starting off with the weekend.. It was pretty much amazing. I can't even remember when I was last THAT happy, well most of the time anyways.
Also that weekend really made me think about stuff, but yeah.. Those are stuff that can't be talked in public.
Btw, the best damn thing in the world is to wake up in the morning and to see your most precious person besides you.
Oh yeah, today I had something similar to an exam(I just don't know the word in English atm) in history. At first I was like really scared but when I got my "ticket", then I was really happy, because I was lucky enough to get a ticket which would let me choose whatever topic I would like to talk about. Finally I got a C(4), I bet nobody could imagine how happy I was.
I could SLEEP tomorrow like for the whole day, as I wouldn't have to go to school, except chemistry! Damn, I wouldn't go to school tomorrow, BUT if I wouldn't go, then I'd just fail my chemistry course and then I'd be screwed.
1:14 PM
I just can't understand it. Why my moods are changing so often? I hate it, but yes, I can honestly admit, that it's not only my fault.
I've always thought, that the environment around us changes us so much - how we are supposed to look, how we are supposed to act etc. But also it changes us in a different way, I mean, when somebody says something good about me, or something else, that is related to me - it usually makes me happy. But like even 1 sentence or just something else can ruin my day completely.
I've been so happy today, well.. at least until now.. But well yeah, I guess that's the way the life is supposed to be.
I'm SO sick of everything. All feels so pointless, empty and broken. I'm pretty sure, that soon I'm just not strong enough to deal with such things. I used to not care about the things that people have said to me, but lately I've been just too vulnerable. When somebody says something about me, I take it really hard - even some old stuff. Oh yea, it's pretty cool to listen to depressing songs.. yeah right! Plus I'm so tired of the routine, and the fact that I have to stay here at the moment(at home). I would just like to get away somewhere, even for a minute.. I just wanna get away..
Today's playlist:
Echo - Igatsen II
Cut - Neiu Aknalaual
Homeboy & 7-D - Meeleheitel
Matu & Teele - Las Minna See Lind
The Locals koos Echo ja Krissuga - Üksik Tüdruk
Infinit - Suhted
A.C & aKeski feat. Erki - Ingel
Lil Rain - Adore You
Wild Disease & Bob - Hoia teda veel
Echo ft. tDrop & Homeboy - Tahan Tagasi Aega
Aviation - You Were My Everything
Rookies, Eleliis & Kusti - Liblikad
Infinit - 3 Elu, 2 Surma
Kenzi - Lootuse
The Rookies - Tüdruk Nimega Lootus
Nasty Boy Klick ft. Angelina - Perfect Man.
5:08 AM
Joined at the soul with a pair of headphones
We need nobody to let ourselves go
Always at my side as we rock a stage show
In an ocean of music we move with the flow
A hand in my hand I don’t wanna let go
A partner in life on this mean old road
We got the wind on our back that blows
We can’t drift apart we just move with the flow.
<3
1:47 PM
Damn, I don't know how to start. Almost everything just feels so.. pointless. I'm SO tired of school, the weather and other stuff.
I would just like to move away somewhere, where it's always warm and sunny etc.. I hate that I kinda get depressed in the autumn. I'm always so tired, I just wanna sleep and do nothing.
Oh yea, by the way - I feel old. When I was younger, all I wanted was to get older. Now I wish I would just be a kid, when I didn't have to worry about anything.
PS! Today, I once again fell in love. But I still love Naks more than anything!
I should actually mention the thing that I fell in love with, It's a jacket, kinda lol, but still - it was gorgeous!
12:36 PM
That's really too long time for not writing ANYTHING, I know, but I have my excuses - I've been busy, like really busy.. doing stuff. lol
Actually if I wanted to write about everything, that I've been doing during the summer, I could write a book. I guess I could give you, people a little overview about the stuff that I've done during the summer, but my "little overview" would be like at least 3 pages long, so that wouldn't be interesting anymore.Damn, it's already autumn.. I hate that the summer is over. I'm gonna miss something SO much.. Dare to guess? Spending my time with Naks. We may have been fighting for a bit, sometimes.. But usually we got along really well and we we're happy and we still are (Especially me, as I'm the luckiest girl alive). :)There aren't such words, which would describe how much I love him! <3
7:39 AM
But just please don't break it..
People always think that everybody else has a better life than they do and the grass is greener on the other side etc. Actually people should find more positive sides in their lives. Life IS complicated and hard, but it's actually just all about yourself - if you try to make your life better, then it usually gets better.
Actually I wanted to talk about myself.. or him.. or us.. Anyways the point is that I'm probably the luckiest girl alive. I know there are many more better girls out there, but I'm the lucky one who has him. It's just amazing how happy can I be with him. He treats me like a princess. I love you.
Most of the people ask "Why is this my life?", because they're depressed or something like that. But not me, I'm so freaking happy right now, as I said before. (:
1:49 PM
Hey bitch, respect your life,
I know, it isn't always sunny,
but fuck it, you aren't a bunny.
You need to understand,
this is the real world, and all alone we stand.
You don't have to be rich,
and always a real bitch.
Remember, what you have is this,
there is no reason to have a greater wish.
I know, it isn't always sunny,
but fuck it, you aren't a bunny.
You need to understand,
this is the real world, and all alone we stand.
You don't have to be rich,
and always a real bitch.
Remember, what you have is this,
there is no reason to have a greater wish.
1:17 PM
2:35 PM
My parents can't control what I can and what I can't do. I'm old enough to take care of myself, make my own decisions etc. It's not their problem, what I'm going to do with my life. They already told me something like this: "Fuck you!". It's not nice to hear something like this from your parents.
Today I acted really psychotic, but I just couldn't act differently, because it was so pissing me off, when I told my father to leave me alone, but he didn't leave me alone. There were lots of other things that my father did, but those things really can't be revealed.
They just don't love me any more. Sometimes I wish that I had never born - a lot of people would have been so much happier.
It just ain't the same, all ways have changed. New days are strange, is the world insane?
12:56 PM
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